Mikami Chisako: Sakanai Hana

01.08.05
Artist: Mikami Chisako
Title: Sakanai Hana
Words: Mikami Chisako
Music: Mikami Chisako

the day I learned there were flowers which don't bloom
still jostling in the breeze
the day I lost sight of what was stable
the world looked like just another picture.

by myself, stopped on the bank
I saw myself relfected, tiny on the water's surface

I'd known all along
but I'd refused to see
my body was trying in earnest to live
I don't have wings.
if I can't go to the place I dream of
I'll wither here and die.

I think, in a room now bare,
that if no one wants you,
you must end up staying along
a road that just goes on and on
even if you scream out,
not a sound, flightless.

enough, enough of this.
even if I convince myself
it's not something I can throw away.

I'd known all along
because I knew that the reason something can sparkle
is that time doesn't last forever
there's no tomorrow
If you don't go right now,
you'll just fade away.

enough, I'm beat.
even if I can't take that first step
I can just stay right here as I am.
I don't want to do anything.

I'd known all along
but I'd refused to see
even though my body was trying in earnest to live
I didn't have wings
if I don't have a place of my own
no one will save me.

I'd built it for so long
even in this place,
I'm myself
this is the only place I can call home

forget it, if I can't bloom
I'll love that,
can I be myself?
this is all I have now.

I'm just alive.

Translated By: Brian Stewart & Takako Sakuma

Translator's Notes: This song is also known as Tobenai Tori as performed by Mikami's band fra-foa.

Romaji

sakanai hana mo arun datte shitta hi
sore demo kaze ni yasashiku yureteta
yuruginai mono ga mienaku natta hi
sekai ha tada no e ni mieta

hitori tatazumu dote
hikaru minamo ni utsuru chippoke na jibun

zutto kizuiteta
demo me wo sorashita
hitasura karada ha ikiyou to shiteta
hane ha nain da
egaita basho he ikanakya
kono ba de kareteku sa

garan dou ni natta heya de omou
daremo jibun wo motometenai to
kitto zutto tsuzuiteku michi wo yuku
sakendemita tte nakazu tobazu da

ii ya, mou ii.
iikikasete mo
sutereru mon jyanakatta yo

zutto kizuiteita
kagayakeru no ha jikan ga eien jyanai to shitteita kara
ashita ha nain da
ima sugu ni ikanakya
kono mama kieteku sa

Romaji By: Brian Stewart